Despite everything, I am still an artist.

I've been feeling some kinda way, thinking about how normal people give up their hobbies. Like “I want to become a real adult, a parent and have a good career, I eventually have to stop playing video games, or talking to online friends, or rotating blorbos in my head. ” This way of thinking doesn't compute to me. I think that is a sign that I'm not “normal”. I started thinking about this shit cuz one of my uber drivers insulted my house when he dropped me off .

I don't desire kids, and I know my ass isn't gonna be having a traditional career path. I like video games!

Video games are just one form of art that influence me, to “give up” video games to become an adult is like… not watching movies or reading books.

I like my online friends! I have about 2 people living in a mile next to me, so I am not making IRL friends or work friends soon. I value the people I meet online because I can be honest with them about things that truly matter, like how big is Batista's dick.

I like rotating my blorbos! I have rotated my blorbos since I was a kid, and that is part of my career as an artist. I used to wander around the playground and create species of rocks with Pokemon-like stats and forms. Now I wander around my yard and make characters play out little stories in my head, and sometimes I record those stories in drawings. Sometimes those characters are existing characters, and sometimes they're my own creations like Ollie and Basile. I cannot imagine giving that up because I need to have more time to diaper up a baby and make it go to college.

I'm fine with not being “normal” for the most part. I'm happy taking care of my dogs and cats and chicken. I'm happy living and working with my spouse. I'm happy that my career as an artist allows me the time to hang out with my animals and spouse. But sometimes I do feel that sorta judgmental expectation to be ~normal~ because a lot of normal people ask me questions like “how much do you make”, “you live like this bitch?”, “when are you going to be heterosexually married”, or normal people talk to each other about stuff like work vacations and having babies - and I have nothing to add to those conversations. I got that azn guilt in me. But it's ok. I don't really want a 9-5 or boss or human infant children. I just feel weird sometimes not being the sort of person other people want to see.

I'm still in the United States.

My main online presence is on the fediverse, on the blorbo.social instance. I post my art and ramblings there first - some things like doodles and adult art only get posted there! Twitter, Instagram, and Tumblr get some of my finished art posts. I've deleted everything on Twitter before this year in an attempt to get people to move anywhere else. I do not scroll any other social media site besides Blorbo, and have even stopped using Dreamwidth for stuff other than exchanges.

TLDR if you wanna talk to me, you should probably try the fediverse, discord (if you have it lol), or snail mail :)

I'm focusing on bejazzling my sticker club, and making a page on this site to simplify the ko-fi info and direct people to here. The first step of bejazzlement is adding the new $25 tier that includes sketches. The next step is adding the old stickers and prints to the ko-fi, as well as add-on sticker designs per month.

The online shop got a stylistic refresh. Hope to update it soon since I wanna do an artist alley with a pal.

My commissions are going a bit slow because we've had a heck of a time dealing with human medical issues as well as our cat Selina's medical stuff. She had FIP, but I think she's mostly treated now. We still have to give her daily medicine for the full 84 days just to make sure. I am STILL trying to color that Oogie comic from last year!

I finally updated Fujofans, and I'm still working on transferring it to a SSG structure. This /now page will serve as a test I guess. I'm using astro to build it because I wanted some fancy thing like rknight's page that would automatically update this page if i make a new blog entry, but technology has eluded me. I want to continue to use this to work on pages that contain a lot of data, like my /writing page.

• Stuff I put on during work includes wrestling videos, like shoot interviews and podcasts:

  • Been finding Chris Van Vliet's hour-long interviews high quality, and he's not annoying because he lets the wrestler speak.
  • I appreciate Dutch Mantel and Stevie Richards half of the time, but I don't like the host they share because the host interjects his own opinions that the wrestlers may disagree with, and tries to steer the interview in ways I don't care for. Also all the thumbnails and titles are click-baity.
  • I enjoy D-Von Dudley's channel.
  • Maven's a bit too much of a centrist shill for me to fully enjoy, cuz he often stops short of saying something fully cuz it's clear he still wants to return to the WWE, but he can be funny. I like his slay eyebrows.
  • Jim Cornette is an ultra boomer with inflammatory opinions. He has interesting pre-2000's stories half the time, and he openly hates Republicans and Trump which is refreshing when most other wrestlers try to be “centrist” or “not political” but are clearly right-leaning lmao. But just cuz he hates a political party I also dislike doesn't make him totally woke. He can still say some sexist (kinda hates all women's wrestling lol), racist (makes fun of Japanese names), and other-ist stuff that makes him rather annoying at times.
  • The Busted Open podcast is cool.
  • The Nemeth Bros podcast hasn't updated in a year, but I like hearing Nic and Ryan's voices cuz they sound like cartoon characters.
  • Stuff I put on to sleep includes competitive pokemon videos, like WolfeyVGC and JimothyGaming.

  Listening:
• I am always listening to boomer rock. I haven't gone looking for new music.

• Peglin

  • Brotato

  Reading:
• Shit on how to use Astro since I'm building this /now page with astro now lmao.